Interesting and disturbing and more...

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Online Communities -- xkcd.com

Sometimes this is what I wonder about our world with simple online communications. Such an interesting way to put it.

In other news, Maeven has finally updated the next chapter and it seems that more action will be occuring. The story is only progressing and getting better and better. And hopefully, with more story stimulating ideas, I can also continue on my goal of having something posted on the internet to share with the reading community out there.

So Blah...

Maeven posted this picture on her blog awhile back and I couldn't help but to repost it to share with my friends.

In other news, I'm patiently awaiting the next few chapters of Through Me as the last two chapters were absolutely excellent. If only I could get to the point where writing came that naturally to me. I'm still in the middle of trying to decide where to stick my Writer's Block-- or tell it where to stick itself.

And while I'm at it, here's another little comic/pic-thingy that I like:


Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net

In Other News

Through Me chapter 19 has been posted now. This is just a tad bit of little news as the ending of this chapter made me want to see into the future to find out what would be happening next.

Have I mentioned that I really, really love this story. Maeven gives just the right amount of comedy, romance, and drama to make you want to keep reading and re-reading it. I absolutely adore the two main characters Adel and Tristan and wish I could have a nice visual of them. In my mind, I can only half-ass an absolutely hunky, good-looking, and charming young high school boy as the great Tristan Harland. But I can't do much else about the image.

Everytime Maeven updates another chapter it makes me want to go back to all of my unfinished writing and do something about them.

In fact, I have one newest creation which may or may not be completed soon because it'll be my very first long-short story that I care to write at all. It'll be a cheesy romance for the young teenage girls, but it'll be a first... hopefully. Cause I've really only written the first part and I need to quickly figure out how to go about the second half.

*sigh*

I feel like I'm about to strangle myself. I'm so pathetic.

So I've been thinking...

Hehe, that's an understatement... and at the same time quite some progress.

I check my email constantly, everyday and probably every hour for updates in everything I need to know. My career options, my friends' comments (like I really have any who'll write to me), and then some news updates from fansites... and then most importantly, the update of the next chapter for my current obsession of original writing, Through Me by Maeven.

The newest chapter has been updated finally and each time she updates, I leave her story feeling extremely content.

As a follow-up, after reading her update notes, I realize just how long of a road I have to go just to catch up to her. I like to write for myself, but not once have I been able to even establish the plot of my stories before I lost motivation or come to a stop where I'm unsure of where to continue on.

I have a very bad habit of following my train of thought and pounding out page after page of work until I come upon a part of my plot that just doesn't seem to fit. And so instead of working around what I've already written, I stubbornly go back and change something, which in turn somehow always changes everything. And so I have reread the whole ordeal to decide whether I really want to keep that change, find another place to change, or go with the new change and rewrite the whole fiasco.

I'm horrible.

I tried a new tactic to my writing a while back by outlining some important factors and going from there. But that hasn't seemed to work either as I realized that I've successfully confined myself to a set plot and when I don't have anything to write for a specific part of my outline, I'm stopped once again.

But what nonsense am I spouting right now?

I love to write, but when the idea comes around to writing and then sharing, I never think my material is good enough for others to see. So I purposefully go back and find flaws with my entire storyline and somehow convince myself that I need to rewrite the whole thing. It's a vicious cycle, because no matter what route I take, I end up going back and rewriting something. Or stopping completely.

I'm a little disappointed in myself. Somehow, I'd love to rewind back to my old fanfiction writing days where I seemed to be able to spit out chapter after chapter without regard to how people will really like it. But at least then, I was motivated to continue writing.

And now a stupid revelation: maybe I should just start posting the first few chapters I've managed to write of something. Because if I do that, I'll get some encouragement (or flames) from readers and decide from there if I want to continue the story at all. I did that when I wrote fanfiction, but my goal after I gave up on fanfiction was to at least write 50% of my story before even showing it to anyone. Because when 50% is written, I somehow believe I won't irrationally go back and change something on impulse that could change the whole story. The plot will be set in stone and I can't go back.
(Editing is option, of course.)

But anyway, now that my post has gone this far, I need to wonder what it is exactly that I'm trying to do. I feel like I just rambled a whole load of bull and that I need to step down for a while and recollect all of my thoughts.